Difficult
circumstances placed in my life to figure out,
God
is testing my faith and trust in Him without a doubt.
How
could I possibly be angry or disappointed by a child growing within,
Giving
me another chance to overcome the darkness in this world covered by sin.
I
do not see your life as a punishment at all,
But
a beautiful opportunity to rely on the faith I call.
For
nine months I will take advantage of our warm embrace,
Your
life has blessed me with a stronger faith and immeasurable grace.
I
am praying for the strength it will take that day,
To
watch another mommy with my baby walk away.
I
know this decision I have made in the best interest of all,
But
that doesn't eliminate the torture and pain…I want it to stall.
I
think about that day and as it flashes through my mind,
I
sort out bits and pieces and leave the negative behind.
I
know this will be the toughest day I have ever had to endure,
But
will be the most selfless act and greatest gift of love, for sure.
Please
always remember I never made this choice because I didn't want you,
I
believed a better life with 2 parents awaited and a loving biological family,
too.
If
love was enough to raise a baby, I have plenty to give,
But
God has bigger plans of love offered by 2 families, in which you can live.
No
matter who raises you or where you call home,
I
will always be your birth mother and within me for 9 months you have grown.
Nothing
will ever replace the special bond we will always share,
I
love you more than you could ever know; only your best is my priority and care.
