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Friday, December 30, 2011

...so about that break...

i have not been off work before 5:30 p.m. all week
i go to work at 6:30 a.m.
i am getting sick thanks to my kids generosity
ran out of gas on the way to S.D.
the cat {YES the CAT} locked my keys in the car
have not accomplished anything
kids came home today
my break was not what i was expecting
but i am glad my kids are home...

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I am {childless}

my 7 children
stayed with Papa and Grama
6 hours away
I have 5 days without them
I do miss them
but I am enjoying the break...

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry

Christmas!

I am headed six hours out of town
feelin' a little crabby and ready to frown,

we have packed the 7 suitcases and have them in tow
I look at my seven precious cargo,

in awe and amazement I feel so overwhelmingly blessed
to be sharing another holiday with those I love best,

it's not about the monetary value that I can give
it is the little things in life examples I can live,

we have packed the snacks and some drinks too
a snacky Christmas feast will have to do,

we will recall the story of that first Christmas morn
when the new Christ child came to earth to adorn,

the hesitation and feelings Mary and Joseph must have felt
unprepared and incapable...in prayer they surely knelt,

I am reminded of this pure example each year at Christmas time
and reflect on it often when the kids are outta line,

so often I feel incapable and unprepared
but  I was given this life to be shared,

with the family and friends that I hold so dear
and the 7 precious cargo that I get to spend another year!



Thursday, December 22, 2011

MIA

I have been Missing In Action
in more ways than one...
my internet shut done, luckily the day AFTER finals
my body, more the less, decided to crash after finals as well
I thought I would have all this time and energy after my classes were done
and instead my body thought different and let me know
two kids sick again
a cold this time
one has pink eye, it's going around daycare
another has a rash that is continuing to spread
headed to the doctor today
still don't have my Christmas shopping done
I have to work overnight tomorrow night into the 24th
singing for church on Christmas eve
still have to wrap all of the presents I already have and the ones I have to get
have to pack for eight
we will be driving to South Dakota on the 25th
...I have been sick as well and sometimes wish I were really MIA...
{just for awhile}

Friday, December 16, 2011

Last day of classes...

I
am 
so excited
to
have
30
days
off
of
class...
I need a reprieve!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

As important as my {REAL} job is to me

I keep reminding myself 
that these 7 children are 
my most important job
and I have to make sure 
they are the priority 
amidst all the other jobs
I am expected to do!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Less than two weeks away

and I haven't even started shopping yet!  Eeeeek....

Reminds me how crazy busy my life is right now.
I am not going to let this get to me.
I am going to remain positive and try to have a Christmas attitude.
{which has been rather challenging this year}

Saturday, December 10, 2011

you say...

I am amazing 
{i feel worthless}

you say... 
I am strong
 {i feel like i have failed}

you say... 
I am talented
 {i feel exhausted}

you say... 
I am a saint
 {i feel imperfect}

you say... 
I am mesmerizing
 {i feel undeserving}

you say... 
I am beautiful
{i feel plain}

you say... 
I am a hero
{i feel like the enemy} 

Thursday, December 8, 2011

in your absence

i step in

in their absence
no one can step in
they cannot be replaced
there is a void
an emptiness
a miserable existence

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

the last few weeks

have been crazy
3 birthdays
still need to plan 2 parties
i am not enjoying the cold {although it is December}
i have finals right around the corner
4th quarter at work...retail
sick kids
Christmas programs
basketball practices and games
homework
Christmas shopping
lack of sleep
migraines
holiday traffic
planning time with family
kids adjusting to holidays
travel
choir practice
appointments
legal issues
my life

Sunday, December 4, 2011

it never fails

at the most difficult
inopportune
stressful
no extra time
a lot going on
busy
day
i have a sick kid...

Friday, December 2, 2011

Anticipation

of what is to come
what could happen
how it will affect me