show me your

 {muscles}

 look how

 strong

you are

{princess stickers and all}

I am struggling

most
with speaking

kindly 

and

lovingly

to those
I love
most
I
could
make
excuse after excuse
about
all the

reasons

I am

stressed

and lose
my patience
but it
still doesn't make 
it acceptable
I
wish
there
was
an easy fix...

It doesn't seem

like very long ago
when my family consisted
of only
you...

 and then I
welcomed another
it was so exciting to
have another baby,
a little sister in
the home...

then I found out
I was having a
boy,
what a nice addition
to two sisters...

#4 was so exciting
the first "timing" I actually
planned,
thought for sure she
was going to be another
boy,
but I was wrong...

then another sweet little
sister to make the home
unevenly matched, things
were starting to get a
little busier...

luckily, I finally had
another boy, to even
out the odds, he was a
nice addition,
and kept me from
sitting around now...

and surprise, surprise,
last but not least
I was having another baby
another boy,
things definitely
are not slowing down now...

and still today, I look at each of them

and think back to where I was

and where I am

what it took to get here...

it definitely has not been easy

but it definitely has been worth it

and I would do it all 

over

again!

Happy Easter!

holidays come and go
just like any other day

i feel like i lost the joy
the celebration along the way

i feel stuck in the mundane
of getting through each minute

each task i am presented
i am challenged to win it

i want to get the joy back
and cherish these precious years

they will be gone before I know it
these moments with my {little dears}

a fine line

between allowing others to define me

and not allowing others definitions of me, become me

I am slowly learning to take what others say

use what I need

tweak adjust reconfigure...just a little

but not lose myself in the process

I am looking into me a lot 

I have spent too much time 

criticizing, critiquing and degrading me

I am challenged to take a look into myself

due to others response or reaction

but it doesn't define me anymore

unconditional love

there is One 

Who doesn't hesitate

to take my pain and suffering

Loves me no matter what

in my weakness as well as my strength

He will see me through

thick and thin

and will always pick me 

back up again

I am searching for answers

...I want You to give

peace ...I wish You would bring

happiness ...I want to experience

pain ...I want You to erase