Happy Birthday!

to my oldest son

he is a teenager today

#13

I cannot believe I have three teenagers in the house

I don't know where the time has gone

Caleb is a kind and loving person

he is intelligent

and works hard when he sets his mind to something

Caleb is talented and has become an amazing singer

I am proud of Caleb

and couldn't imagine my life without him!

Katelyn...

I only want your life to be defined by a legacy of love and a witness of God's faithfulness...

once upon a time, not so long ago, there lived a mommy and a daddy who shared their life with one little princess.  The little princess brought them so much happiness and joy.  This mommy and daddy had experienced such a pure, unconditional love that they decided they would like to share their lives with another little prince or princess.  They prayed to God asking for another child to share their life with.  God placed a very special request on my heart.  He asked me to carry a baby in my tummy to share with this mommy and daddy.  A baby that I would get to spend nine months of pregnancy loving, nourishing and caring for.  I didn't know if I was strong enough.  I told God I wanted to keep you all for myself.  God couldn't guarantee me that it would be easy.  He knew this would make me really sad, but He did promise that my baby would be very special.  So very special that she would get to have two families to love her.  Both families prayed to God asking for guidance.  The day you came into the world was filled with emotions.  You were such a special gift.  I finally got to meet you for the first time and your new family did too.  Not every child gets to be born into the arms of two loving families, that would make you a very special princess.  Even though your life didn't go the way that I would have planned - your life has followed a destiny that only God could have known or planned and that makes you a very special gift from God.

Happy Birthday!

Today Quinton celebrates his 7th birthday

He is growing up so fast

He is a soft-spoken, gentle spirited child

He is very wise and likes to be a joke-ster

I am so grateful to call myself your mother and 

I am proud of the wonderful boy you are!

Happy Birthday!

 Today my middle child celebrates her10th birthday

She is a beautiful person full of spunk and life

Watching her change and grow is rewarding as her mother

I am very proud of her and her dedication to living life to the fullest

Happy Birthday to my "princess Shaye Lyn"

Happy Birthday

Today my second oldest daughter celebrates her birthday

She is 14

It is hard to believe she is growing up so fast

I often look at all of my children and wonder where the time has gone

She is full of life, love, and laughter

I am lucky to call myself her mom

It is a blessing to watch her grow into a beautiful young woman

{#35} already...

this is a hard year for me
only five more years to {#40}
I reflect on my life and don't feel
like I have accomplished the things I
wanted to by my {35th} birthday
I have seven wonderful children
who make me smile and drive me crazy
I will graduate in May with a BSW
after taking 29 credits this semester
and completing 500 hours at my internship
I will start my MSW in June and complete it in one year...
no, according to the "worlds standard" I am probably
not where I am expected to be at {#35}
but I look at what I have accomplished
what I have survived
the amount of sacrifices I have made
and how I have overcome
and I realize I need to give myself some credit...
I am {#35} and working diligently to make a
better life for my kids
it has not been easy
but it is worth it...
I will embrace {#35} with a new attitude
and be proud of how far I have come

Eleven months...

there is a void
that I desire to fill

it seems impossible
nothing replaces

this emptiness
it is hard to explain

I have learned to cope
I don't let it show

but this ache
can consume me

this void cannot be filled
I seek happiness

and have joy abounding
I am determined

and work extremely hard
I busy myself too often

it soothes the void
but it doesn't erase

time doesn't provide answers
it allows more time living with the reality

missing you, seeing you, holding you, touching you,
provides solace

but doesn't fill this void