today

I celebrate my 33rd birthday
a lot of big changes in my life
I realized a long time ago that birthdays are just another day
nothing overly special about them
but this year I am choosing to make this day special

nothing out of the ordinary

I am not going out of my way
but just realizing that this day is a special day
because it celebrates me and my life
and I am learning that I am special
and worth being celebrated
and it starts with me

I have been off work

for 2 weeks now
today is my first day back
all but one of my kids have had the chicken pox
they have been out of school for three weeks now
it has made life rather interesting
I never thought in a million years that
I would be one who would be glad to go back to work
but it is true
I am happy to be back to work in my new life routine

end

to a new beginning...
benchmarks
creating new realities
that can change perspectives
that can influence opinions
causing sadness
loss
emptiness
loneliness...

Happy Birthday!

to my sweet Ella-Bella-Bella-Boo!
today she is {6}
she is growing up so fast
i am so proud of the progress she is making this year
watching her learn new things makes my heart swell
she has big feelings
she is so kind and loving
she loves babies and animals
she wants to live with me forever and ever
i am blest to be her mother
and i wish her another wonderful year of everything that is good

Happy Birthday Ella-Bella-Bella-Boo,
always remember "I Love You"

today

i will keep my head above water

i will speak lovingly

i will smile

i will help another

i will look for the good in others

i will focus on the positive

i will savor moments

i will laugh with my children
i will make the best of it

today is my first day

back to class

I am taking 3 classes on campus this semester

it could prove to be a long 16 weeks

still working full time

and having kids to tend to

adding their sports on top

and then studying their homework and mine

oh yeah and I need to sleep...

I am going to continue to make the best of it

because I know for certain that 

it is all going to be worth it...

sooner than later!

picking up the pieces

is an exhausting job
i am furious about having to clean up the messes
that your choices have left behind
the majority of my life has been spent
tidying up the leftovers of another
and i am effeted
i am tired of {doing the dirty work}
i am ready to just start living a normal life
with the day to day daily grind
with the simple pleasures
and the awkward set backs
not having to deal with these 
mind blowing 
life changing 
attitude altering
circumstances