what happens when

you are struggling
and trying
and giving it your all...
and still
it
is 
not
enough?

I am learning

very slowly 
how to redefine me
my dreams
my experiences
my ideas
what is important to me

at a very young age
I was forced to believe
that I was responsible 
for everyone elses

feelings

pain

circumstances

situation

anger

frustrations
happpiness

it is the most difficult 
thing I have ever had to do 
try to relearn
that I am not responsible for you
I am responsible for my

feelings

pain 

circumstances

situation

anger

frustrations
happpiness 

How do you

move on in life

when all of your hopes and dreams 

seem to be deflated

everything you have tried and desired to become

has been dashed

not in a moment 

but in a lifetime...

It was a 3rd Birthday...

I love celebrating birthdays
I love even more
being able to make each one of my children
feel extra special 
on that one day of the year
the day they came into the world
what a better day to celebrate {you}

well my baby... {youngest}turned 3

He had a CARS party.

He is all boy

He keeps me on my toes

 He is full of love

He has one big personality

and no problem making everyone laugh

He is a special part of my life

and I fondly cherish each year I get to make birthday memories

Yesterday

I got a call about 9:00 am
at work and said I needed to come get Keegan
he fell and hit the door frame
and split his forehead open...
okay, I will come get him,
no he needs stitches...
I take him to the E.R.
sit there for 3 hours
got {hospital superglue} instead of stitches
less of a scar 
holds better
on and on...
OKAY whatever you say
45 minutes after leaving the ER
we went back because it was
already broke open and bleeding like crazy
they decided to superglue it again?
put it inside this time
a bigger area on top
but if it happens again...
we will have to just do stitches...
SMILE?

sooooo...

I am getting ready
for two big events
Confirmation on Wednesday {today}
and
First Communion on Saturday
there will be 15 people in my home
for 5 days
not only does that create extra laundry 
and

additional chores

we have strep throat
and
pink eye again
let me just say
I am not surprised
we are also still trying to get
over this viral cold we have had
for about 3 weeks
anyway
it will be such a nice

change

to have family around
I am really looking forward to it

simplicity in

the simplest form
is all I ask for
nothing less 
nothing more