living in the moment today

isn't a new concept
but it is a challenge
I feel stuck
almost like I can't move any direction
because I don't know the outcome
or how and if my direction will affect it
so instead of doing something I feel like I can't do anything
I am reminding myself regularly that
I have to live in the moment
be content with it
and let the future take care of itself...

I love to be barefoot

my kids are just like me, barefoot all the time!

this new job situation has really changed that
I  use to walk around barefoot, year around,
and would only slip shoes on if I was going somewhere,
and when snow was on the ground, I would have to peel on a pair of socks and shoes

Now, I am looking for a comfortable shoe, with good support,
that will look good with khaki, and isn't too expensive.

My arches in my feet are hurting really bad.  I honestly was naive to the fact that I
needed some support. Walking around on a concrete floor for 8 hours is completely different than walking barefoot around my home!

I just don't seem to have the time to find that perfect pair of shoes right now.

When I started my blog almost one year ago

my daily goal was bliss...

that was actually my very first blog on 6/8/2010
I have realized that is what my blog has been about
every second of every minute of every hour of every day of 
every week of every month of every year
I want my life to be BLISS
I have asked myself,
  {what do I need to make this very moment bliss}
...Because Life Is Something Special

I have always allowed my pain

to be superficial

I emotionally attach to everything and everyone

I allow my pain to be engulfed by emotions

I physically numb my pain

I don't allow my body to feel its pain

I ignore it until it festers and starts oozing

I am trying to retrain myself to listen to its aches

to feel its pain

and to be gentle with myself

realizing I don't have to feel for everyone else

I have enough of my own to feel

I am experiencing

a whole new side of people
being in a work enviroment
there really are some awesome whole-hearted people
there are also some really nasty rude and inconsiderate people
and there are some who just don't give a @#$%
then others whom this is their life
I am trying to figure out where I fit into these people 
while at the same time consistently trying to learn my new position

I am working 40 hours a week

and next week I will start college classes full-time...

today

my father and mother-in-law celebrate their anniversary

I want to wish them another year of togetherness

and a deeper intimate love that they can continue to share with each other

I appreciate their dedication to raise their son the best they possibly could

without them, my husband, or my children would not be part of my life

my children have profoundly impacted me forever and I love them more than I could possibly love anything...and that possibility was extended to me because of my in-laws...

Happy Annieversary!