I have always allowed my pain

to be superficial

I emotionally attach to everything and everyone

I allow my pain to be engulfed by emotions

I physically numb my pain

I don't allow my body to feel its pain

I ignore it until it festers and starts oozing

I am trying to retrain myself to listen to its aches

to feel its pain

and to be gentle with myself

realizing I don't have to feel for everyone else

I have enough of my own to feel