Today

my parents celebrate their anniversary....

I appreciate their committment to each other
their years of sacrifice to make their marriage work
the positive example they portrayed of love
and their ability to give themselves away...

I wish them many more years together!

emotions buried alive

continuing to suppress

until learning a new way feeling exposing wanting to express

then told to not let emotions show for real
in and out of reality with which emotions should one deal

how about picking which one to feel today

and deciding the others must simply go away

how is that possible how is that sain
trying to learn how to deal and told feelings appear vain

taking baby steps of how the world expects it to be

then backslide and shift because of what they might see

It is okay

I tell myself
to give a pat upon my back
and appreciate simplicity 

value beauty

to expect courtesy
to depend on some assistance

cry when sad

and not be perfect
to let some things go
and try harder after failing
to love myself
and like taking care of me

the positive

just seems to 

reproduce

the more I 

am willing

to 

focus on

it

I am focused

on the twinkles of light

shining through the cracks

they do not shine very bright

but the longer I focus 

the more clear they become...

journeys pace

keeps me at a distance
from that far off end in sight
I keep striving and struggling
to do everything that's right
to find out I end up
right where I left off
I'm gonna keep myself on track
the journey without a cost

I miss

tender love

nonexistent

powerfull

fulfilling

passionate

I would do anything for you

you mean the world to me

you are everything to me

I am so into you

I cannot forget you

simple

pure

love