a piece of my heart is missing

it exists outside of my life
lives in a home away from mine
is cared for by a mother that is not me

a piece of my heart is missing

and nothing fills the void

this ache
this longing
this desire for more
leaves me feeling unsettled

there is no fix
or magic solution
that will disolve this all away

for now
I am learning how to live
with the pieces left
from a broken heart

....will you please

believe in me

until...

I can believe in myself?

Happy Birthday!

Today my mom celebrates her birthday.
I love the bond we share
Over the years we have developed a closeness 
not only as mother and daughter
but as friends.
I look forward to many more birthdays 
celebrating her life!

patiently waiting

for You to come through

on Your timing

I get so tired of waiting, wanting, wishing

You know all my thoughts, my desires, my pain

when I allow my life to follow the path

You have planned for me

the steps seem so much smoother

not saying that it is not still difficult

but I know I can make it, I will overcome it

because I have You by my side

seems like forever

since I called you mine
you are a perfect creation intertwined in my life
I have an emptiness inside
that cannot be filled
my heart has a piece missing
my grief is so intense
my pain is raw
but on the outside
 you cannot see the pain I carry within
acting like "I'm fine"
has become a part of my everyday coping skills
yet on the inside I am falling apart
How do you adjust?
How do you let go and just be?

ache

buried within 
nothing eases the pain 
nowhere to turn 
so intense it takes my breathe away 
my new normal

Life has an interesting way

of unfolding
the circle of life and death
with an end comes a beginning
and through each beginning there is bound to be an end...