Your

Unconditional 

Super-natural

Healing

Soothing

Love...

{is needed right now}

pieces

crumbling apart
left heavy hearted
with an unbearable ache
loss takes a toll 
and claims areas of the heart
that will only exist broken
physical emotions carried within
immerse when least expected
my body aches
my mind is empty 
and my heart is heavy
...loss
dealing with loss
no words can describe it...

Gotta love parties

 at Chuck E Cheese

 Ella celebrated her 6th birthday

 it was a "zoo"

 luckily she only invited 3 friends {+ my 7}

 they had a good time and didn't notice the craziness

...I was glad when it was over

love celebrating birthdays,

but not in that environment

I confine

my heart

ever so fiercely

guarding every move

waiting

hoping

expecting

afraid to ask for more

giving it away all too quickly

retracting it all too late

Summer...

is almost here

excitement

sadness

changes

air conditioner

pool

work

night class

activity

Life

I am having a hard time
keeping up with life
it seems to be passing me by
and I do not have a moment to breathe
I feel like at times I am suffocating
I see glimpses of beauty 
and have so little time to admire them
I have wonderful and amazing things
going on all around me and far too little time
to cherish them
I am stressed to the max and it consumes
what little spare time I have
Finals approaching... not enough time to study
if only I had more time...
then I would find things to fill it up
and still need more time yet